Random pre-training thoughts

Mel here.
It amazes me how difficult 2 miles is. I amazes me how my body "feels" like I haven't ever run before. I ran two miles today and decided to push myself. Mostly from the encouragement of Amber. I know Amb, you said nothing, but just your eagerness to make a good time on our marathon makes me want to already start working on speed. So I decided I would run faster than normal and try to keep a steady pace. I intended on running the first miles really fast (for me anyway) and then I would slow down, but I ended up running my first miles really fast and then walking for a minute or two and then running the last mile pushing myself, but not as fast as the first.

So anyway towards the end I wanted to slow down. I was tired and wanted to stop and I thought of how I also slow down at the end and I wanted to get better at that, so I tried to maintain my faster pace and I DID! Then I started thinking about how so many times I have such a hard time pushing myself. It's difficult for me to go out and run and push myself, but if I have someone running with me, or I set a goal before going out then I'm more likely to be able to push myself. Then I thought about how I am usually pushed by my circumstances. In life I have a difficult time pushing myself, but the right circumstances and pressure reveal that I could do much more than I thought.